The Lord is teaching me to relax and not be in such a rush. All my life, I have been in a hurry afraid of missing out on something. When the whole time, I miss the little things and create more chaos than I need. being a perfectionist, I tend to expect my kids to be perfect. which they aren't.  yet by being a perfectionist, I am teaching my kids that they have to be perfect. Being perfect is completely unattainable. There is only one person I know that was ever perfect and that was Jesus and he is the Son of God.  Learning to relax and being unfocused on time, I let my kids see that they don't need to be perfect for me to love them just as my heavenly Father Loves me and I am no where near perfection. Spending time outside, instead of cooped up in the apt. has helped tremendously. It has also brought about a change in the boys' behavior.  As a parent, we want our children to grow up knowing that we love them for who they are and want them to have the best and be the best they can be.  Showing them that true happiness is not found in things or people but in our Lord and Savior.

i will admit that I struggle daily fearful of screwing up as a parent. Having never had a stable home growing up, I find it difficult to know what to do and learn through experiences.

**DISCOVERY.....now that they are a little bit older, Jaedon and Waylon love to be read to.  Jaedon loves to read (which I think is fantastic). Right now, I am reading through the Harry Potter series with them.  (I have read all 7 and it will take a very long time).  We read one chapter a night unless it is late.

May3rd

Can't believe it is already MAY! Wow this year is flying by.  Back to school today.  Jaedon wasn't very excited yet it is going smoothly for the most part. halfway through what we need to do, and its a little after 1pm. Takinga much needed break.  Waylon insisted on helping me with dishes, which was fine, until I needed to rinse the dishes and he refused to move so I could do that.  He screamed and through a huge fit as per usual. Jaedon redid his handwriting 4 times and the fourth time it looked beautiful! If one can say so about writing. Got dinner in the crockpot, beef stroganoff.  I am hoping it turns out good. Some crockpot meals have been disappointments.

crayons

Well, we are enjoying a weej of no bookwork. Cleaning all morning and doing laundry has filled most of the day.    One exciting this we did was make "new" crayons. A lot of crayon got melted from being in the hot car.  We tore all the paper off the crayons and broke them up and then put them in the oven.  When they were completely melted, I set them outside to cool.  Now they have 12 round crayons! Bringing out the Paint later today! Should make for a good mess!

Catch up! :)

Well, sorry for the lapse in postings! Its been fairly busy and eventful somewhat the last 5 days. Friday, we went to a friends house with another homeschool mom and we looked at the caterpillars that were now a cocoon and had a science lesson from that. Then the kids play a math game.  The game goes as follows (need 1 deck of cards minus king, queen, and jack & a bag of dimes and pennies): The first child picks up a card what ever number is on that card he gets to choose that many pennies or dimes. You have 6 turns.  The goal is to reach 1.00$ without going over.  If you go over you lose. Then we did a reading lesson. 

After we left, we got ready and left for Papaw's house.  I have been dreading it because going to Papaws is always a nightmare. (Waylon's papaw).  He hit on me for 2 days! And kept touching my hair.  On top of him being my sons papaw he is about 74 years of age. Then he tried to get me to go out his 60+ year old friend Junior.  The boys, on the other hand, had a wonderful time.  They played out side the whole time. I was so greatful to come back home.

This week at church is missions week.  WHAT A BLESSING! Vamce Pittman spoke in both the morning and evening services. I put my "yes" on the table and already have a passport appt. in the morning. SO EXCITED! i want to be ready for the Lord to use me wherever.  I feel that he is leading me to something permanent.  Hopeing to do my first mission trip this year. Being filled with the peace of the Lord is the most wonderful and exhilirating experience. Where ever HE leads, there I will follow. 

Today, we went on a Homeschool field trip to see the Davy Crockett museum.  We also got to see the house and spot where he was born.  Jaedon and Waylon had fun.  

At church, they had Kid Impact where they played games and learned about missionaries. I was in room with Missionaries Tak and Lana Oue who work in Japan.  Praying the Lord continues to touch their ministry. 

More to write later!

Grouchiness

Today is grouchy day, which came in the form of Waylon. He took about an hour nap which was great.  However when he woke up, it was like Oscar the Grouch came to visit. Imagine giving a spelling test to one child while at the same time, your younger is screaming and crying and telling you "NO!" to everything. Fortunately about 20 minutes after he got up I was able to satisfy him with some diet root beer. Root beer is my new best friend. Jaedon does very well on his spelling and got a 100% today; that gives him 2 days of no spelling work. We did not work out today as my body is in too much pain and is physically exhausted.
Jaedon is learning about Daniel.  He thinks it is so great that his middle name is the same as one of Daniels friends Azariah (Abed-nego).
Reubens for lunch today! So good! had to make a trip to the grocery store because i forgot the sauerkraut.

4/19

Monday.
Started out fairly well. We started out with reading Daniel 2 and went from there. Then I got a brilliant idea to clean out the fish tank. This quickly escalated into rearranging and deep cleaning. So what should have taken maybe 30 minutes took the whole day. Also, 2 of our fish jumped out of the "holding" bowl while i was cleaning their tank.  One died and the other I caught in time.  With a long break for lunch and helping me move, we eventaully finished around 4pm. Then off the Petsmart to replace our fish.  We ended up with 2 African dwarf frogs and one silver tetra (only bought one so my single tetra would have a friend).  They are currently nameless.

School Area in photos!